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Akino Ame ([personal profile] akinoame) wrote2015-01-11 12:09 pm

Pieces of Me

Took a while, but I finally got this posted.

Title: Pieces of Me
Rated: T
Summary: In the aftermath of "Kings and Vagabonds," Eiji tries to recover from the physical and mental turmoil he went through in the past. But with old wounds aggravated by new, he has a hard time finding his way back to himself. And asking others to help carry a burden he knows is heavy may be harder than trying to shoulder it himself.

This was an intensely personal fic to write, which is why it took me so long to do it. I know it may not seem like it, since I was posting "Vagabonds" throughout November and December, but keep in mind that I completed "Vagabonds" on Halloween. I've spent the past few months working on this fic, trying to work out my own emotions while working out Eiji's.

A few months ago, a friend of mine went through a really terrible time, and she's still working her way through it. With that in my mind, I couldn't just jump from the end of "Vagabonds" into "Snow, Flowers, Flame" without some degree of recovery and aftermath. This was kind of part of the healing process--hopefully for her, as well as for me. To show that no matter how hard things get, happy endings are possible and not always too far out of reach. And it's not on one person alone. And maybe it took a dozen rewrites and getting upset and having to overhaul the entire second half of the fic, but if it does good, then that's good.


Bibliography



"Pieces of Me" by One OK Rock


J-Pop Asia: Lyrics and translation
iTunes: Mighty Long Fall/Decision single - Features "Pieces of Me"
One OK Rock Official Youtube Channel

PTSD


While I've learned much about this condition thanks to years of my own research and study in school, what I knew in terms of diagnostic criteria was based off the American Psychiatric Association's DSM-IV (Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders) instead of the international ICD-10 (International Classification of Diseases). This required new research.

ICD-10-CM Diagnostic Code: Posttraumatic Stress Disorder - Basic description
U.S. Department of Veteran's Affairs, National Center for PTSD - Comparison of diagnostic criteria between the DSM and ICD
PubMed Health: PTSD - Includes ICD diagnostic criteria and its differential diagnosis

Other


Physicsworld.com: Supernova link to ancient extinction - That interesting theory Eiji was studying alongside German when he fell asleep in the library
Wikipedia: Haupia - The Hawaiian dessert Eiji and Chiyoko were making

Cameo

[personal profile] gourdcaptain 2015-01-11 08:09 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh my god, I was so surprised and happy when I recognized who Takuya was. Good fic.

Re: Cameo

[personal profile] gourdcaptain 2015-01-11 08:20 pm (UTC)(link)
Hilariously, I didn't recognize the Agito guy until after I read the end note, and I've just finished watching that series in its entirety a month ago. And I considered "A New Transformation" one of the highlights of the series. It certainly isn't when Beauty Beast Kemp's actor (Yutaka Hirose) cameos as the Worst Policeman In Rider Ever (not spoiling because I don't think the TV-N subs you watch have gotten to his cameo in episodes 49-50 I believe).

Seriously, I heard that guy dropped out of Toku after that role and stated he didn't like the direction Tokusatsu was going at that point, and I have to wonder if the sheer ridiculous terribleness that was that role made him decide that. A shame if it was.
Edited 2015-01-11 20:21 (UTC)

Re: Cameo

[personal profile] gourdcaptain 2015-01-11 09:23 pm (UTC)(link)
Technically wikis claim that the guy (Professor Yoshihiko Misugi) that Shouichi (as in the Agito Shouichi, that gets so confusing) stays with it a psychology professor as well, but they only ever used him as a sounding board for weird paranormal stuff.

Agreed that a lot of Riders could need some help from therapists. See almost everyone in Ryuki, Tachibana and Mutsuki from Blade (for the love of god), Another Agito and Gills in Agito... (and pretty much 2/3+ the Rider cast of any series. He must be busy.)